Thinking Spring

Well, it's that time of year again. Spring time. Everything is turning green and colorful. It is always a refreshing sight to see the buds on the trees after a colorless winter. I never realize just how much I love green trees and flowers until I haven't had them in a while and they begin to reappear. It kind of reminds me of that saying, "Absence makes the heart grow fonder." While usually said in regards to people, it makes sense in this situation as well. The absence of color in life makes me that much fonder of it when it comes out of hiding once again.
That being said, I feel like with the springtime I am entering into a new phase of my life. I feel like I am finishing up an old chapter and starting a new one. Maybe it's because Leilani is a lot more interactive and it's easier to take her out and about. Maybe it's because we have made a change in churches and I am getting to know a new group of friends. Maybe it's because I am realizing that I don't have to live my whole life trying to be a people pleaser. Maybe it's because I'm finally seeing that it is ok to weed out toxic people and relationships in my life.
I am beginning to see that no matter what I do, there will always be people who disagree with me or dislike me for my convictions and standards. There will always be people looking to find fault with me and my family for one reason or another. I used to think that it was my sole purpose to make sure nobody had anything against me for any reason and to make sure that I was keeping everyone else happy, all the while living in a state of misery and depression myself. I have reached a point now, by God's grace, where I just don't care what everyone thinks. There are people who are close to me that I want to please and make happy, but there are others who are just toxic and find fault to no end with everyone. I cannot make these people happy no matter how hard I try and I'm realizing that it isn't my job to try. Pray for them I will, but I will not be manipulated by their schemes or made to feel inadequate or guilty for not giving in to their every whim and demand.  It's time to weed out the manipulators in my life.
What a freeing release I now feel. I am like a new leaf budding on a tree. Ready to start this new season with beauty and hope and joy.
Thank you Jesus for revealing your wisdom to me and for providing direction to my family. Thank you for new life, for fresh life and for fresh starts.

Leilani Crawls

I had a great birthday present this year... Leilani started crawling for the first time! Then just today she pulled herself up to a standing position all by herself! She has also gotten her first two teeth within the past two weeks. How time is beginning to fly! I know she isn't even a year old yet, but my baby is growing up too fast. Mommy loves you, Leilani. <3

Late Night, Can't Sleep

Well, it's currently 2:03am and I cannot sleep. I have been having frequent nights of insomnia as of late and I'm not really sure why. I'm exhausted by the end of the day but for some reason cannot turn off my mind to actually fall asleep. Something that I have been struggling with lately is how to handle people that rub you the wrong way. I'm sure that no matter who you ask, everyone has at least one person in their life that just drives them crazy or irritates them in some way, shape or form. I am not trying to be negative and I am not trying to complain. I am just stating the facts.

This leads me to another topic (although regarding the same issue). How do you handle people who rub you the wrong way especially when they profess to be close to Christ with their mouth but their actions and even topics of conversation at times constantly contradict and speak otherwise? What is judgmental and what is calling fruit, fruit or a thorn a thorn? 

I've been doing a lot of praying and contemplating on this lately. Based on a study I did in Proverbs I have come to the conclusion that there is such thing as a "fool" and below is an article that I found to be quite enlightening.

The Fool (Proverbs 26:1-11) 

Study By: Bob Deffinbaugh

Introduction

Certain people immediately come to our minds with the mention of the word fool. The first person I thought of was the actor, Jerry Lewis, followed by the Three Stooges, Larry, Curly, and Mo, then the Marx Brothers, Maxwell Smart, Tim Conway, and Don Knotts. It is interesting to me that none of these men fit the definition which Proverbs gives us of the fool. The “fools” I thought of are all rather harmless creature, basically well-intentioned and innocent. All of them evoke a certain sense of pity, mixed with amusement. Not so with the fool in the Book of Proverbs. This is but one of the reasons why the study of “the fool” is important.

But if we take the words of our Lord seriously, we must begin by asking whether our study is sanctioned by Him in the light of His teaching in Matthew 5:22:

“But I say to you that every one who is angry with his brother shall be guilty before the court; and whoever shall say to his brother ‘Raca,’ shall be guilty before the supreme court; and whoever shall say, ‘You fool,’ shall be guilty enough to go into the hell of fire.”

In the Sermon on the Mount, of which this verse is a part, our Lord was attempting to show that He did not come to reduce the requirements of the Law, but to reinforce them so that they would be interpreted even more strictly than was common in Israel. Not only was it sinful to commit murder (5:21), but it was wrong to be angry with a brother (5:2f) because anger may lead to murder, just as lust may lead to immorality (5:27-30).²⁴ To call a brother a fool is to declare him to be worthless. If a man is but a fool, a blight on society, it would be better for all if he were dead. To conclude that one is worthless, then, is to come to the conclusion that the world would best be rid of him, which is but one short step from murder. Our Lord did not condemn the assessment of a person’s character, but the assassination of one’s character.

Just as our Lord did not forbid us from discerning the character of fools, the Book of Proverbs commends this assessment as a necessity for those who would be wise. Several reasons are given for the need to discern between those who are fools and those who are wise.

1. TO ASSOCIATE WITH FOOLS IS BOTH UNWISE AND UNPLEASANT. To some degree folly is contagious, and association with a fool tends to diminish our ability to discern truth from error and wisdom from folly.

Leave the presence of a fool, Or you will not discern words of knowledge (14:7).

A fool is bound for his own destruction, and he will inevitably destroy everything in his path. Those who get in the way of the fool will get hurt.

Let a man meet a bear robbed of her cubs, Rather than a fool in his folly (17:12).

The scoffer, the worst form of fool,²⁵ is not only to be avoided, but is to be driven away.

Drive out the scoffer, and contention will go out, Even strife and dishonor will cease (22:10).

If anyone needs to be able to recognize a fool it is the young man or woman who is seeking a life’s mate. There is nothing more miserable than to be married to a fool. While Proverbs takes the positive approach here, exalting the godly wife (e.g. 31:10-31), the fool should be avoided as a partner in marriage. Abigail was married to a fool (I Sam. 25), but God was gracious enough to deliver her by his death; but this is not the norm. She may not have had much to say about her marriage to Nabal, but you do, and will have to live with your mistake in a marriage partner.

2. TO EMPLOY A FOOL IS A TRAGIC MISTAKE. Those who are responsible for hiring employees will want to take special note of the warnings of Proverbs to those who would hire a fool.

He cuts off his own feet, and drinks violence Who sends a message by the hand of a fool (26:6).

Like an archer who wounds everyone, So is he who hires a fool or who hires those who pass by (26:10).

3. FOOLISHNESS IS INHERENT IN CHILDREN AND THEREFORE PARENTS MUST KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH FOLLY WHEN IT OCCURS.

Foolishness is bound up in the heart of a child; The rod of discipline will remove it far from him (22:15).

Proverbs offers hope to parents that foolishness can be cured if detected early and disciplined diligently.

4. FOOLS MUST BE DEALT WITH DIFFERENTLY THAN THOSE WHO ARE WISE. We cannot deal with all men in the same way. Our response to people must be based on the kind of character they have demonstrated.

He who corrects a scoffer gets dishonor for himself, And he who reproves a wicked man gets insults for himself. Do not reprove a scoffer, lest he hate you, Reprove a wise man, and he will love you (9:7-8).

Do not answer a fool according to his folly, Lest you also be like him. Answer a fool as his folly deserves, Lest he be wise in his own eyes (26:4-5).

These considerations necessitate discerning the character of others and, in particular, that of a fool. Not only will we be able to see foolishness in others as a result of our study in Proverbs, we will also see a greater measure of it in ourselves. May God enable us to be honest with ourselves, to confess our foolishness, 2 and to forsake it as sinful and destructive, both to ourselves and to others.

Characteristics of A Fool

It is much easier to identify a fool in terms of what he is not than in terms of what he is. Notice the following characteristics of the fool as the Book of Proverbs describes him.

1. THE FOOL IS UNRIGHTEOUS. The fool hates what is holy, righteous, and good, and he loves evil.

Desire realized is sweet to the soul, But it is an abomination to fools to depart from evil (13:19).

Doing wickedness is like sport to a fool; And so is wisdom to a man of understanding (10:23).

Fools mock at sin, But among the upright there is good will (14:9).

2. THE FOOL IS UNWISE. Throughout Proverbs the fool is the counterpart of the wise. Wisdom is contrasted with folly. The fool does not possess wisdom, cannot obtain wisdom, and would not obtain it if he could.

• THE FOOL DOES NOT POSSESS WISDOM;

The lips of the righteous feed many, But fools die for lack of understanding (10:21; cf. 1:20-33).

• THE FOOL IS NOT CAPABLE OF OBTAINING WISDOM:

Why is there a price in the hand of a fool to buy wisdom, When he has no sense [literally, “heart”]? (17:16).

A scoffer seeks wisdom, and finds none, But knowledge is easy to him who has understanding (14:6).

Wisdom is too high for a fool, He will not open his mouth in the gate (24:7).

The fool has no capacity for wisdom. In the words of 17:16, he has “no heart” for it. He may seem to seek wisdom, but is incapable of recognizing or retaining it.

• THE FOOL HAS NO DESIRE FOR WISDOM, AND WOULD REJECT IT EVEN IF HE COULD ACQUIRE IT BECAUSE HE HATES IT:

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge; Fools despise wisdom and instruction (1:7; cf. 1:22).

The mind of the intelligent seeks knowledge, But the mouth of fools feeds on folly (15:14).

A fool does not delight in understanding, But only in revealing his own mind (18:2).

Do not speak in the hearing of a fool, For he will despise the wisdom of your words (23:9).

The fool is not neutral toward wisdom--he hates it. Wisdom is to the fool what liver is to me: as freely and frequently as it may be offered to me, I will do everything I can to avoid it.

3. THE FOOL IS UNREALISTIC. The fool fails to see things as they are. Reality is distorted by the fool’s distorted outlook on life.

• THE FOOL IS UNREALISTIC ABOUT HIMSELF in that he overestimates his knowledge and abilities:

“Proud,” “Haughty,” “Scoffer,” are his names, Who acts with insolent pride (21:24).

• THE FOOL IS UNREALISTIC ABOUT LIFE. He thinks wisdom can be obtained easily, like purchasing a candy bar at a corner drug store.

Why is there a price in the hand of a fool to buy wisdom, When he has no sense? (17:16).

• THE FOOL IS UNCONCERNED WITH PRESENT REALITIES, and is a wishful thinker. His “ship” is always about to “come in.”

Wisdom is in the presence of the one who has understanding, But the eyes of a fool are on the ends of the earth (17:24).

4. THE FOOL IS UNDISCIPLINED. The fool looks upon self-control as a needless and useless denial of present pleasure. Because of this, every area of his life lacks discipline.

• THE FOOL IS UNDISCIPLINED WITH HIS MONEY AND MATERIAL RESOURCES:

There is precious treasure and oil in the dwelling of the wise, But a foolish man swallows it up (21:30).

• THE FOOL IS UNDISCIPLINED WITH HIS TEMPER:

A fool’s vexation is known at once, But a prudent man conceals dishonor (12:16).

A fool always loses his temper, But a wise man holds it back (29:11).

• THE FOOL IS UNDISCIPLINED WITH HIS MOUTH:

A prudent man conceals knowledge, But the heart of fools proclaims folly (12:23, cf. 10:14).

The tongue of the wise makes knowledge acceptable, But the mouth of fools spouts folly (15:2; cf. 18:2,7).

It is little wonder that the fool is referred to as a “babbling fool” (literally, the foolish of lips, 10:8,10).

5. THE FOOL IS UNRELIABLE.

• HE IS UNRELIABLE IN HIS WORK: The fool is dishonest and evil and cannot be trusted in any area.

He cuts off his own feet, and drinks violence . He sends a message by the hand of a fool (26:6).

Like an archer who wounds everyone, So is he who hires a fool or who hires those who pass by (26:10).

• HE IS UNRELIABLE IN HIS WORDS. The words of the fool are always to be questioned. He is a liar, a deceiver, and a slanderer.

He who conceals hatred has lying lips, And he who spreads slander is a fool (10:18).

The wisdom of the prudent is to understand his way, But the folly of fools is deceit (14:8).

Better is a poor man who walks in his integrity Than he who is perverse in speech and is a fool (19:1).

Even what the fool believes to be true may be only his worthless opinion. The tongue of the wise makes knowledge acceptable, But the mouth of fools spouts folly (15:2).

The lips of the wise spread knowledge, But the hearts of fools are not so (15:7, cf. v. 14).

6. THE FOOL IS UNTEACHABLE. Try as you like, attempting to teach a fool is frustrating at best, and often painful. Whenever a fool is faced with wisdom and instruction, he will reject it.

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge; Fools despise wisdom and instruction (1:7).

Because they hated knowledge, And did not choose the fear of the Lord. They would not accept my counsel, They spurned all my reproof So they shall eat of the fruit of their own way, And be satiated with their own devices. For the waywardness of the naive shall kill them, And the complacency of fools shall destroy them (1:29-32).

Whenever the fool is disciplined, he resists it.

A fool rejects his father’s discipline, But he who regards reproof is prudent (15:5).

He who corrects a scoffer gets dishonor for himself, And he who reproves wicked man gets insults for himself. Do not reprove a scoffer, lest he hate you. Reprove a wise man, and he will love you (9:7-8).

A scoffer does not love one who reproves him, He will not go to the wise (15:12).

A rebuke goes deeper into one who has understanding Than a hundred blows into a fool (17:10).

The folly of a fool is deep-seated. No matter how hard one strives to rid the fool of his folly, such efforts end in failure. A fool and his folly are seemingly inseparable.

Though you pound a fool in a mortar with a pestle along with crushed grain, Yet his folly will not depart from him (27:22).

The fool cannot even learn from his own mistakes. Given the opportunity, he will repeat his folly:

Like a dog that returns to its vomit Is a fool who repeats his folly (26:11).

It is ironic, but true, that while the fool refuses to be taught, he is eager to teach others from his abundance of “wisdom.”

A prudent man conceals knowledge, But the heart of fools proclaims folly (12:23).

A fool does not delight in understanding, But only in revealing his own mind (18:2).

7. THE FOOL IS UNPLEASANT, UNLIKED, AND UNDESIRABLE. The fool is a menace, a detriment to society. He is a pain to his parents, for he hates them (15:20) and causes them grief (10:1; 17:21,25; 19:23). He is a disaster wherever he goes (10:14; 17:12).He hinders the understanding of others (14:7).His speech is slanderous (10:18). The fool is quarrelsome (20:3), and he stirs up dissension and anger.

A fool’s lips bring strife, And his mouth calls for blows (18:6).

Drive out the scoffer, and contention will go out, Even strife and dishonor will cease (22:10).

Scorners set a city aflame, But wise men turn away anger (29:8).

So far as society is concerned, the fool is an abomination.

The devising of folly is sin, And the scoffer is an abomination to men (24:9).

The Causes of Folly

I believe it is possible to reduce the causes of folly to two principle choices: the decision to distrust God and the decision to trust in one’s own heart.

First, the fool is one who has willfully determined not to follow the way of wisdom. Although wisdom has sought him out, he has refused and rejected her.

Because I called, and you refused; I stretched out my hand, and no one paid attention; And you neglected all my counsel, And did not want my reproof; . . . Because they hated knowledge, And did not choose the fear of the Lord (1:20-25,29).

The fool is not neutral toward wisdom, he hates it, and he loves the evil of his way (cf. 10:23;13:19; 29:27).

Second, one becomes a fool by trusting in himself. If one will not trust in God (1:7,29), he must trust in himself. Proverbs tells us that the fool is self-confident, trusting in his own wisdom, rather than in God and the counsel of those who are wise.

The way of the fool is right in his own eyes, But a wise man is he who listens to counsel (12:15).

To the fool, no one is more trustworthy, wise, or reliable than himself. He who trusts in his own heart is a fool, But he who walks wisely will be delivered (28:26).

Realizing the tendency of the fool to trust in himself enriches our understanding of one of the most familiar passages in the Book of Proverbs:

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own eyes; Fear the Lord and turn away from evil (3:5-7).

The fool, trusting in his own understanding, rejects the fear of the Lord, and chooses to walk in the way of evil.

This decision to trust in self results in arrogance (21:24) and in a rejection of all authority, including that of one’s parents (15:5; 10:8). The fool is characterized by complacency (1:32).After all, who needs instruction, if he knows it all? Who needs correction who is never wrong? Who needs improvement, who has already arrived at wisdom and maturity? As a result, the fool has an autonomous spirit, and is reckless in his living (14:16).

How to Treat a Fool

Now that we have seen the characteristics of a fool and have learned the root causes of his folly, we must direct our attention to the treatment of a fool. Proverbs has a good deal to say on this subject, and nearly all of its instruction pertains to what we should not do. Our actions with regard to fools are often more negative than positive.

1. WE SHOULD AVOID THE FOOL IF AT ALL POSSIBLE. While wisdom is not contagious to a fool, folly is to the wise; therefore, the wise man should avoid the fool.

Leave the presence of a fool, Or you will not discern words of knowledge (14:7).

In addition, the fool is dangerous and harmful, and we should avoid him like a bear robbed of her cubs (17:12).

2. THE FOOL SHOULD BE DRIVEN OUT. In those cases where we cannot leave the fool, the fool may need to be sent away.

Drive out the scoffer, and contention will go out, Even strife and dishonor will cease (22:10).

The New Testament teaches that Christians should not fellowship with professing Christians who are living in sin (I Cor. 5:9-13). The church is instructed to put out those who disregard biblical rebuke and correction (Matt. 18:15-17; I Cor. 5:5). The words of Paul to Titus seem closely related to the teaching of Proverbs that we should avoid the fool:

Reject a factious man after a first and second warning, knowing that such a man is perverted and is sinning, being self-condemned (Titus 3:10-11).

3. WE SHOULD NOT WASTE OUR INSTRUCTION ON FOOLS. In the New Testament Jesus taught that we should not “cast our pearls before swine” (Matt. 7:6). In Proverbs, we are told not to attempt to teach fools:

Do not speak in the hearing of a fool, For he will despise the wisdom of your words (23:9).

4. WE SHOULD NOT ALLOW THE FOOL TO DRAG US DOWN TO HIS LEVEL. The fool is exasperating; he is looking for trouble, and he often tempts us to oblige him. Since the fool will spout off and speak his mind, we are tempted to lose our temper with him as well. Proverbs instructs us not to allow him to get the best of us, lest we be lowered to his level.

Do not answer a fool according to his folly, Lest you be like him (26:4).

5. WE SHOULD NOT DIGNIFY A FOOL BY GIVING HIM UNDUE HONOR, SO THAT HE WILL-BE FLATTERED AND PUFFED UP EVEN FURTHER. The fool is pompous and proud, and he will take any positive strokes as a compliment. We should avoid giving him any honor.

Like snow in summer and rain in harvest, So honor is not fitting for a fool (26:1).

Answer a fool as his folly deserves, Lest he be wise in his own eyes (26:5).

6. WE SHOULD NOT ATTEMPT TO CORRECT THE FOOL, FOR IN SO DOING WE WILL ONLY PUNISH OURSELVES. The fool is never open to rebuke or correction. Any effort to correct a fool by mere verbal rebuke is futile.

He who corrects a scoffer gets dishonor for himself, And he who reproves a wicked man gets insults for himself. Do not reprove a scoffer, lest he hate you, Reprove a wise man, and he will love you (9:7-8).

When a wise man has a controversy with a foolish man, The foolish man either rages or laughs, and there is no rest (29:9).

7. WE SHOULD NOT MAKE LIFE EASY FOR THE FOOL. While verbal rebuke is not effective with fools, we should not seek to cushion the painful effects of their folly. The “way of the transgressor is hard” (13:15) and so the folly of a fool will bring about many difficulties. These painful consequences of sin may be instrumental in bringing the fool to the end of his folly, but regardless, the painful blows of sin should not be softened.

In the mouth of the foolish is a rod for his back, But the lips of the wise will preserve them (14:3).

A fool’s lips bring strife, And his mouth calls for blows. A fool’s mouth is his ruin, And his lips are the snare of his soul (18:6-7).

Luxury is not fitting for a fool; Much less for a slave to rule over princes (19:10).

The prodigal son did not come to his senses until he was allowed to suffer the consequences of his folly (Luke 15:11-14).We must not hinder fools from entering the pig pens of life, for it is there that they may come to recognize their folly.

8. FOOLS SHOULD BE SEVERELY DISCIPLINED. Fools do not learn from a lecture, but they cannot ignore physical pain. The only method of discipline for the fool is “the rod.”

A whip is for the horse, a bridle for the donkey, And a rod for the back of fools (26:3).

The fool may not learn even though he is severely disciplined, but others may learn a lesson by seeing the outcome of folly.

Strike a scoffer and the naive may become shrewd, But reprove one who has understanding and he will gain knowledge (19:25; cf. 21:11).

The preceding principles governing our treatment may incline us to draw the wrong conclusion. Are fools utterly hopeless? Should we not make any effort to turn them from their folly? What are the implications of Proverbs for evangelism? Since, in one sense, all unbelievers are fools because they have rejected the fear of the Lord, should we do nothing to win them to Christ? The answer to these questions is also found in Proverbs.

The point which Proverbs is stressing is that the fool cannot be reasoned from his folly, cannot be shamed from it, and likely cannot even be beaten from it (cf. 27:22).This should not, however, lead us to the conclusion that the fool is utterly hopeless and helpless. Everyone who does not know Christ is hopelessly lost apart from divine intervention. The reason why Proverbs teaches us not to try to reform a fool is that he must be transformed. The fool’s problem is one of the heart (3:5; 4:23).

Proverbs reminds us that if we would help deliver a fool from his folly he must be saved from his sin. Rather than working on the symptoms of folly, we must deal with the heart of the matter. Notice that in Proverbs wisdom offers herself to all men; and specifically the fool is urged to turn from his folly.

“How long, 0 naive ones, will you love simplicity? And scoffers delight themselves in scoffing, And fools hate knowledge? Turn to my reproof, Behold, I will pour out my spirit on you; I will make my words known to you (1:22-24).

“Come, eat of my food, And drink of the wine I have mixed. Forsake your folly and live, And proceed in the way of understanding” (9:5-6).

The solution for the fool is to turn from his folly, from trusting in himself, to fearing God. If we would help the fool it is by proclaiming to him the way of salvation, not trying to inform him (by teaching) or reform him (by rebuke and correction). It is only the gospel which transforms men through the power of the shed blood of Jesus Christ.

Conclusion

There is much for the Christian to learn from the teaching of Proverbs on the fool. Let me suggest several topics on which you might profitably meditate.

First, while we would admit that foolishness (folly) is sin, let us also be aware of the fact that sin is foolishness. Whenever we choose to sin, we are choosing to play the part of the fool. When we sin, we conclude that we are wiser than God, and that we are better able to judge matters than He. Sin is the decision to reject the wisdom of God and venture out on our own. In the Garden of Eden, Satan deceived Eve into believing that God’s prohibition was unwise and unkind, and that disobedience would make her wise, even God-like (Gen. 3:5-6). Such is always the case with sin--we cannot choose to sin without rejecting the wisdom of God. Sin is folly.

Second, let us think of Satan as the prince of fools. As I think through the characteristics of a fool, I am reminded that no one is better described than Satan himself. He chose to rebel against God and to assert his will over God’s (Isa. 14:1215).He delights in sin, and he actively seeks to lead others in his evil way. He sets himself about the task of hindering others and bringing about their destruction (I Pet. 5:8).He is a deceiver (I Tim. 2:14; Rev. 20:3), a sinner (I John 3:8), a liar and a murderer (John 8:44).He accuses the saints before God and slanders them (Rev. 12:10).He is arrogant and proud (Ezek. 28:17; I Tim. 3:6). He is a troublemaker and a nuisance. Because of this, he should be avoided, but we should not attempt to rebuke him (Jude 8-9). Satan is the prince of fools, the essence of folly.

Third, everyone must decide to be a fool in the eyes of some. The one who is wise in his own eyes is a fool to God. The one who trusts in God and walks in the way of wisdom is a fool to Satan (cf. Job 1) and to those who are without Christ. The way of the cross is a foolish way to the unsaved (I Cor. 1:18-25).To become truly wise we must forsake our own human, finite, wisdom (Prov. 3:5-6) and trust in the wisdom of God. We must become foolish to become wise:

Let no one deceive himself. If any man among you thinks that he is wise in this age, let him become foolish that he may become wise. For the wisdom of this world is foolishness before God. For it is written, “He is THE ONE WHO CATCHES THE WISE IN THEIR CRAFTINESS”; and again, “THE LORD KNOWS THE REASONINGS OF THE WISE, THAT THEY ARE USELESS” (I Cor. 3:18-20).

Would you be wise in the eyes of God? Then you must acknowledge your sin, and trust in the death of Jesus Christ on the cross of Calvary for the forgiveness of your sins. He died in your place. He bore the penalty of your sins. By trusting in Christ’s death on your behalf, you not only enter the way of wisdom, you enter the way of everlasting life.

Fourth, it is possible for a Christian to play the fool. Unfortunately we may stray from the path of wisdom into the path of folly and sin. David did when he took another man’s life, and his wife (II Sam. 11). Solomon did when he married foreign wives (I Kings 11:1-4).

As I turned once again to the passages of the New Testament which speak of putting off our old man (e.g. Eph. 4:22-32; Col. 3:9-17) I noticed that the very things which we are told to put off are the characteristics and actions of the fool. Our old nature is predisposed toward practicing folly. Those of us who are Christians need to look for the fool in us, not just in others. The enemy, so to speak, is us. The foolishness of our old nature must be diligently disciplined. We must not pamper the flesh, but crucify it. Ultimately the only solution for foolishness is the cross.

Then Jesus said to His disciples, “If any one wishes to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up, his cross, and follow Me” (Matt. 16:24).

Now those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires (Gal. 5:24).

“I have been crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me, and delivered Himself up for me” (Gal. 2:20).

Let us seek, by the grace of God, to put to death the works of the flesh, to be wise, and to forsake folly. And let us seek the salvation of those who are fools, by proclaiming the foolishness of the cross.

Insecurity

Why, as women, do we so often struggle with insecurity? This is what I have been asking myself a lot lately. Maybe it is just because I have been staying home with Leilani without much adult interaction, but I have been feeling very insecure about myself recently and I have been feeling quite friendless. Questions and doubts such as "Why would anyone want to be my friend?" "I'm such a boring person. I don't have anything to offer to anyone." "I'm so untalented and useless. Why are my talents and gifts so hidden while others are so blatantly obvious and visible?" "Why do I always seem to be on the outside of everything looking in?" 
I read a quote in my devotions the other day that really caught my attention. "Our insecurities take control of our intelligent minds and convince us to believe lies about ourselves." This is so true! The more I allow myself to wallow in insecurity the more of my mind it takes over and I continue to think less and less of myself until I have shrunk myself down to a piece of dirt in my head. If I am viewing myself like this how in the world am I going to be able to reflect anything else to the people around me? 
I was encouraged as I read Psalm 139:14. The entire Psalm is awesome and an encouragement every time I read it, but verse 14 says "I will praise thee: for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well." Even though I've read this verse a million times in the past, this time it made me realize that God has made me who I am for His good pleasure and He doesn't make mistakes. He has gifted me and provided for me as He sees fit and all I can be is thankful and give Him the praise that He is due. 
"Thou art worthy, O Lord, to receive glory and honor and power: for thou hast created all things, and for thy pleasure they are and were created." Revelation 4:11

It's the Most Wonderful Time of the Year!

Well, it's December which means that Christmas is ALMOST HERE!!! This is my "Most favorite time of the year" (sung to the tune of the most wonderful time of the year). I love everything about Christmas! I love putting up the tree, hanging Christmas lights, decorating the mantle, using the fireplace, driving around and seeing all of the Christmas lights, listening to Christmas music, spending time with family I don't see much during the rest of the year... The list could go on and on! Christmas has always felt like such a magical time of year for me ever since I was little. Probably because in a way it is! Everyone has a different attitude at this time of year. Most people are kinder and more caring and thoughtful. If only we could be this way all year round! 

One thing this year that I am extremely excited about is the fact that this is going to be my first Christmas as a mom (and not to mention my first Christmas married to my husband where I won't be pregnant and still experiencing morning sickness). That being said, I think having a child just makes Christmas all the more exciting! I have had WAY too much fun Christmas shopping for Leilani this year and she isn't even REALLY going to know what's going on. Next year may be a different story. Something about just having her though makes me re-live my childhood memories. I want Leilani's Christmases to be just as special as mine were. Ben and I are not going to make a big deal about Santa, but rather we will tell her the truth about why we celebrate Christmas. We will teach her and share with her that Christmas is about celebrating the birth of the best gift to the entire world, Jesus. In doing this we don't take the "magic" away from Christmas, but we add so much more to it! Christmas is a time to give of ourselves to others and to show our love and appreciation to our families. This is what I am going to teach Leilani. 

Another thing that has been really great this year is that I have completed pretty much all of my Christmas shopping and can sit back and relax and just enjoy the season. I can go to the mall and not feel like I need to fight through lines. Instead, I can step back, look at the decorations and enjoy it all. This year I really just want to soak everything in and relive Christmas as a child. I want my eyes to sparkle and my stomach to get butterflies just thinking about Christmas. If I could sing a little better I might even consider going Christmas caroling! *If anyone CAN sing and would like to Christmas carol, my door is always open to receive you!* :) 

I feel like this post has jumped around a little bit and hasn't exactly flowed so well, but it sort of matches how I feel right now. So many things I'm excited about, so many things I'm thankful for and so many ideas on how to make this Christmas extra special... A Christmas filled with all the love that you could imagine.    

A Wise Woman

I came across this article today and this is the prayer of my heart. I desire to be this woman! I am going to print this out and post it somewhere I will see it daily as a reminder of who I am meant to be, not who the world says I should be.

A wise woman doesn’t take anything for granted. She is thankful to be loved and seeks to make herself more lovely.

A wise woman doesn’t allow herself to be a liability but strives to be an asset to the marriage bond. She looks for ways to make, save, and use money wisely. Her husband knows he is a richer man because she is his wife.

A wise woman seeks to be a part of her husband’s life. His interest becomes her interest. She looks for ways to help him in every endeavor in which he is involved. When he needs a helping hand, it is her hand that is there first.

A wise woman knows that his peace of mind (and sometimes, wise understanding) is something she can give or take away by her observations and conversation concerning circumstances or people. She limits her conversation to the positive.

A wise woman sets a joyful mood in the household. She uses laughter, music and happy times to stir the children to a positive, joyful frame of mind. She knows this light-heartedness helps take stress off her husband.

A wise woman gauges her husband’s needs. She seeks to fulfill his desires before even he is aware of them. She never leaves him daydreaming outside the home. She supplies his every desire.

A wise woman understands that her husband’s need to be honored is not based on his performance but on his position. She learns quickly to defer with enthusiasm to his ideas or plans. She looks for ways to reverence him. She knows this is God’s will for her life.

A wise woman is not pitiful, puny, or whinny. She seeks to be confident, capable and thankful.

A wise woman does not dream of what “could have been.” She sees clearly that she is not God’s gift to men; thus she is blessed in her present circumstances. She learns to be content.

A wise woman never expects anyone to serve her; therefore she is never disappointed. She is ready to help—a giver. By her example her children learn to serve cheerfully and energetically.

A wise woman doesn’t attempt to instruct her husband through feigned questions. Her questions are sincere inquiries concerning his will.

A wise woman is always learning. She is open to change. She is ready to hear. She wants to know. She doesn’t cloud her mind with the foolish folly of entertainment. She uses her time wisely.

Pondering

First of all, I knew this would happen. I already have not been keeping up with this like I would like to. The days just get so busy so quickly! Second of all, Leilani is upstairs going down for a nap and she is talking and cooing to herself and I think it is just the most precious sound ever! I am so blessed that she is able to put herself to sleep on her own. Also, at only 5 months old she is able to play with her toys on her own without me "entertaining" her for sometimes an hour at a time! She is such a good girl. Something I was thinking about today though is that it takes work and consistency! One of my friends commented to me today that it seems Leilani is the "perfect" baby. I would not go as far as to say that, she does have her grumpy moments (like the last hour before bed time). What does the perfect baby consist of in peoples minds though? A baby who stays on a schedule, sleeps through the night consistently, takes consistent naps during the day and can play on her own for a while. The more I thought about it, yes, Leilani DOES do all of these things, but she wouldn't if I didn't train her to. It has taken work teaching her that this is the way things are done. It took a little while to teach her that bed time is bed time and once she's in the crib there's no getting out unless it's for a quick diaper change if she gets stinky. Same thing with nap time. Nap time is nap time, no way around it. Sleeping through the night? When she started sleeping through the night from 9-6 almost every night and then all of a sudden one night decides to wake up at 2 I went in and told her it's still bed time, flipped her over and gave her a kiss goodnight. She put herself back to sleep. Same thing happened a few times and I consistently did the same thing. Did not pick her up, did not give her a bottle, just simply flipped her over in her crib, gave her a kiss and said it's still night night time. Mommy loves you. Goodnight. Now, occasionally I hear her wake up and start moving around at 2 or 3 sometimes even 4 but she almost never cries at these wakings but instead coos to herself for a minute or two and then puts herself back to sleep until her normal feeding time between 6 and 6:30. The only reason that I believe she is consistent in her sleeping is because I am consistent with her in what I expect. Naps are the same way. If she wakes up before I know she's ready, I don't get her up. I go give her a kiss and tell her it's still nappy time and she will then put herself back to sleep. Yes, sometimes there are some tears and crying, but I stand my ground and she always goes back to sleep. Nap time falls within the same small window of time every day. Things are kept consistent. When I do something that is NOT consistent with her schedule, oh boy look out! Grumpy baby time!!! So, to sum that all up, consistency is key! I did not even start this blog with the intent of writing about Leilani but apparently I needed to let all of that out. Now onto the reason I actually started writing today...

In my daily Bible reading I have been having a hard time getting motivated to read lately. You see, I am in the beginning of 1 Chronicles which for the first 9 chapters is mainly one big genealogy. So hard to read through those! It did get me thinking though, how interesting it would be if I knew my genealogy. I wish I had a better listing of my family members past, who I come from, what their stories were. I know that to some extent you can trace back family trees pretty far nowadays, but who has the time or money for that? Definitely not me. Still, I want to know the stories! A lot of times when I think about my family I think Mom and Dad, Grandma and Grandpa, Great Grandparents and for whatever reason that's where it cuts off in my head. Almost like Great Grandma and Grandpa didn't come from a family, but just sort of existed all of a sudden and then came my little world. Seriously though! Who were my great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great grandparents? Where did they live? Where did they come from? How did they meet? What were their family gatherings like around the holidays? How many kids did they have? What did they do for fun? Who were their close friends? How cool would it be to be able to watch a movie or read a book about my family from so many generations ago? These thoughts made my interest in reading through the "boring" genealogies in Chronicles just a little bit more interesting. These have been my ponderings for today...