Why, as women, do we so often struggle with insecurity? This is what I have been asking myself a lot lately. Maybe it is just because I have been staying home with Leilani without much adult interaction, but I have been feeling very insecure about myself recently and I have been feeling quite friendless. Questions and doubts such as "Why would anyone want to be my friend?" "I'm such a boring person. I don't have anything to offer to anyone." "I'm so untalented and useless. Why are my talents and gifts so hidden while others are so blatantly obvious and visible?" "Why do I always seem to be on the outside of everything looking in?"
I read a quote in my devotions the other day that really caught my attention. "Our insecurities take control of our intelligent minds and convince us to believe lies about ourselves." This is so true! The more I allow myself to wallow in insecurity the more of my mind it takes over and I continue to think less and less of myself until I have shrunk myself down to a piece of dirt in my head. If I am viewing myself like this how in the world am I going to be able to reflect anything else to the people around me?
I was encouraged as I read Psalm 139:14. The entire Psalm is awesome and an encouragement every time I read it, but verse 14 says "I will praise thee: for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well." Even though I've read this verse a million times in the past, this time it made me realize that God has made me who I am for His good pleasure and He doesn't make mistakes. He has gifted me and provided for me as He sees fit and all I can be is thankful and give Him the praise that He is due.
"Thou art worthy, O Lord, to receive glory and honor and power: for thou hast created all things, and for thy pleasure they are and were created." Revelation 4:11
So I didn't even realize how many of these posts you'd done! I guess I just thought the ones you put on fb are the only ones you wrote. This one is especially relevant to me because I feel like I literally could have written every word.
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I can't even count how many times I've thought those exact words.
And you're right - they are all lies from the pit of hell. We just need to keep reminding ourselves of that <3
I'm glad that it encouraged you. I don't always post to Facebook when I write a new *blog* post. ;) Sometimes I feel like things are a little too personal to broadcast to the whole world. Kind of funny though since they are still out there whether I let people know or not. I really want to get even better about posting but it's hard to keep up sometimes. It's encouraging to hear people confirm that they go through the same stuggles as I do and it isn't just me. :) Love ya girl! You're beautiful! <3
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